Thinking

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I look at the world. I am really good at the big picture, I can see the back ground to how I want to live and why. But it’s the details of living every day that get me. I talk great about why I do things and I really believe them but sometimes being me I don’t feel like I’m living like I talk.

In some ways that’s why I have this blog, to hold myself accountable. A friend and I were talking about how we live versus how we would like to be living and she mentioned that she never does all the things that she would like to, you know the beautiful and wonderful stuff that sometimes gets put to the side. One of the things on her list was to have a blog, but she feels like she needs to start doing things right before she starts blogging. I want to tell her that the blog is helpful, it keeps me accountable for my life. It reminds me to focus on getting the important stuff done as well as the joyous things. It makes me look at the world in 500-1000 word sections and through the view finder of my camera.

On the weeks that I don’t blog and I don’t take my camera out with me I find that I get bogged down with the annoying parts. I can’t deal with dishes, we watch too many videos, I don’t talk with my family. This little place where I write about my days and my crazy ideas has a lot of meaning for me. I want to share the world working well, I want to be proud of how I am doing things. That means I have to be doing the things that I want to write about.

Don’t expect to see me try another 30 days of Happiness or anything, I love the concept but it’s too much pressure that it turns into a negative in my mind. But I am trying to keep this place full of reminders to myself of how we live our lives towards our bigger picture and have fun and create beauty.